Small step of obedience!

Small but very difficult!!

It seem so black and white in today's verse!

Obey God and you live!

Disobey God and you die!

Sure I wanna obey God lah!

BUT!

Not so easy sometimes!

My selfish desires and indiscipline gets the better of me sometimes.......

Actually most of the times lah!

I fear God! I really do fear God! Especially reading the verse below. I really fear not obeying God!

But sometimes I forget where I put my fear!

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please help me not to lose my fear when I am about to disobey You!

In Jesus Name I pray!

AMEN!

Deuteronomy 30:15-20 (New International Version)
15 See, I set before you today life and prosperity, death and destruction. 16 For I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess.
17 But if your heart turns away and you are not obedient, and if you are drawn away to bow down to other gods and worship them, 18 I declare to you this day that you will certainly be destroyed. You will not live long in the land you are crossing the Jordan to enter and possess.
19 This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 20 and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

Resting on God!

Its been almost 2 weeks since I have done proper QT.
However this time I believe I have gone stronger in faith. You see in my pass few entries I had meditate on trials and temptation and to learn to rest in God. At that time I didn't think it was so relevent to me. However as this two weeks pass I realise that God was giving me those scripture to prepare me for what's to come. This two weeks was indeed tough and mentally and physically draining. I have been sick and very busy with work. Normally I would look to other stuff for rest and comfort. However remembering on my pass meditation I decided to look to God for renewed strength and comfort and I was not disappointed. Somehow as I prayed and prayed, God indeed gave me the strength and endurance to go through.

PRAISE GOD!
I know what I go through pales in comparison to what others in the world go through, thus I am a bit worried if what I am going through is just the tip of the ice berg?!? I know it is not good to worry but just to trust in God! Well this is a struggle I battle within myself! Thus it is good to have this reading today!

John 20:24-29 (New International Version)
26A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you!" 27Then he said to Thomas, "Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe."
28Thomas said to him, "My Lord and my God!"

My prayer!
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank you and give all honor and glory to you for sustaining my strength and refreshing me! Please help me never to doubt in your love, your grace and your power!
In Jesus name I pray!
AMEN!

Every Good and perfect gift is from above!

Yesterday I tried to do my QT after work.

Not good idea!
DIdn't have time to do it in the end!
So force myself to do it in the morning.
However I still feel a sense of rush when I do QT in the morning.
Nevermind I will meditate on the verse below for the whole of today!

James 1:16-18 (New International Version)
16Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. 17Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.

Today I made right yesterday's wrong!

Today I came in to work at 7am. Gave me plently of time to read God's word and ponder on it!

Gave me time to pray before anyone came in to disturb me.

So were there any sparks?!?! Did God's light shine down on me?!?
DId I receive any great revelation?!?!?

NOPE!
NOTHING!

Sometimes I feel like talking to myself!

Am I discourage?!? Has my faith suffered?!?! Am I questioning God?!!?

NOPE!
NO WAY!

My faith in God is not affected! I am not discourage!
I have so many things to thank God for. I can see His grace and mercy in my life.
He has given me second chance, third chance and many more!

How can I be anything but grateful and faithful to Him!
He has no obligation to me. I have an obligation to HIM!
I pray that this obligation will turn into a genuine intimate love relationship with Him!

In the mean while I will try my best to give time to HIM! To spend time praying...not just for things that I need but to draw close to Him and to know HIM!

MY FEAR!
is that as I do that, the devil will throw trials and temptations my way!
TODAY's READING! (James 1:12)
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

I pray that I may be able to pass the test!

I take comfort with the verse!
5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)

My Prayer!
Dear Lord as try to draw near to You, be merciful upon me and let not my sins condenm me!
Please draw near to me that I may grow deeper into a close intimate relantionship with You!

In Jesus name I pray!
AMEN!

James 4:8 (New King James Version)
8 Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Not enough

Today I came in to work later than my usual time. So I just rush through my QT reading!

I realise that QT cannot be like this! This is not a ritual that will ensure I do not sin!

I feel I need time to pray and just spend time in quietness with God!

I think I will spend time not eating lunch and in serious prayer!

I hope the Devil will not bring things up to side track me!



IT is now 6:56pm I am suppose to be in my sister's place already!
Well I didn't do what I wanted to do!!!

Argh!!! Forgot I had management meeting that took up the whole day!!!!

Maybe tonight I will be able to spend time praying!!!