Today I made right yesterday's wrong!

Today I came in to work at 7am. Gave me plently of time to read God's word and ponder on it!

Gave me time to pray before anyone came in to disturb me.

So were there any sparks?!?! Did God's light shine down on me?!?
DId I receive any great revelation?!?!?

NOPE!
NOTHING!

Sometimes I feel like talking to myself!

Am I discourage?!? Has my faith suffered?!?! Am I questioning God?!!?

NOPE!
NO WAY!

My faith in God is not affected! I am not discourage!
I have so many things to thank God for. I can see His grace and mercy in my life.
He has given me second chance, third chance and many more!

How can I be anything but grateful and faithful to Him!
He has no obligation to me. I have an obligation to HIM!
I pray that this obligation will turn into a genuine intimate love relationship with Him!

In the mean while I will try my best to give time to HIM! To spend time praying...not just for things that I need but to draw close to Him and to know HIM!

MY FEAR!
is that as I do that, the devil will throw trials and temptations my way!
TODAY's READING! (James 1:12)
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

I pray that I may be able to pass the test!

I take comfort with the verse!
5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)

My Prayer!
Dear Lord as try to draw near to You, be merciful upon me and let not my sins condenm me!
Please draw near to me that I may grow deeper into a close intimate relantionship with You!

In Jesus name I pray!
AMEN!

James 4:8 (New King James Version)
8 Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Not enough

Today I came in to work later than my usual time. So I just rush through my QT reading!

I realise that QT cannot be like this! This is not a ritual that will ensure I do not sin!

I feel I need time to pray and just spend time in quietness with God!

I think I will spend time not eating lunch and in serious prayer!

I hope the Devil will not bring things up to side track me!



IT is now 6:56pm I am suppose to be in my sister's place already!
Well I didn't do what I wanted to do!!!

Argh!!! Forgot I had management meeting that took up the whole day!!!!

Maybe tonight I will be able to spend time praying!!!

Lack of Self Discipline!

Saturday and I am in the office!
Actually finish work already just surfing the net and facebook.
Have not done QT!
COuld have done it in the morning but didn't feel like doing it cause just did it late last night.
I am so bad!
With my gf I cannot wait to see her even after seeing her the night before but here I am telling God a different thing and I say I love God more than anything else in the world!

Argh!!!
OKOK! Sorry God!
I will spend time with you!

2 Timothy 1:7
7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Dear Lord,
Forgive me for not wanting to spend time with you.....
Please give me a spirit of self discipline and a joy to want to spend more time with you instead of the shallow things of the world that will never love me back or have any worth in the world to come.
In Jesus Name I pray!
AMEN!

Force it!!!

It is now 9pm! I have been working non stop since 8am!
Actually I did just came back from a quick dinner earlier.
But I didn't have time for lunch!

I started the day wanting to do my QT! But right away one thing after another came up until now. I feel so tired and lazy. Do I return to my bible and go back to where I started off this morning??! Or do I go back and sleep! Normally I will go back but I made a pledge to do my QT everyday for this Lent season so I will force myself!!!

........5 mins later.......

Hahahaha!! I on the daily bread online and the verse reads!
Be still, and know that I am God. —Psalm 46:10
I am not kidding!! I am writing this in real time!!
Let me mediate on this and pray for a while!

.....some time later......

I realize in my QT that God is asking me to see rest in Him. To go seek Him when I am tired and He will strengthen me! Psalm 23:1-2 Reminds me that if the Lord is my Shepherd, I will not be in want and He will restore my soul.

My Prayer!

Dear Lord,
Please forgive me for not turning to you when I am tired. Please help remind me to always look to you for strength and restoration!
In Jesus Name I pray!
AMEN!

Back after a month! 2nd day of Lent Season!

Its has been a month since my last posting!

And yes to be honest I have not really done my QT since!

Shame on me!

But during that time I have still continue to pray and seek God and I did have a spiritual breakthrough!

For the first time in my life I actually sat down with someone and confess all my sins to God but in the presents of another more Spiritually mature man of God!

The experience of scary and yet after that...empowering! I shared about my addictions and weakness and then he gave me advise without condemning me and then we prayed together!

The saying is very true! Confession is indeed good for your soul!
I encourage all those out there who is struggling with a sin or an addiction to
1. Admit you have a problem and cannot help yourself
2. Go find a good christian more mature person (from the same sex) and confess your sins to God in the presents of that person!
3. Get that person to help you be accountable to your problems!

Also I had experience another miracle!

Last weekend I had a gout attack on my leg again!! This was Saturday evening!
I had a clown show which I could not get out already on Sunday and I had no one to help me!
However I prayed earnestly as I could to God asking Him for His mercy and grace!
The next 24 hours instead of getting worst ( like it was suppose to because the gout attack just started) The gout attack actually got better right away and by Mon morning I was completely healed!

So I just want to PRAISE GOD and give HIM all the HONOUR AND GLORY!!

Today I got back to my QT and I am doing this special lent season reading!
Lent season is 40 days before Easter and I think it is especially good if one take this time to abstain from certain things and meditate and ponder and the suffering of Christ during this time!

Then I think Easter will be more meaningful to you (instead of just thinking of Chocolate Easter Bunny!)

My today's reading is on James 1:2-4
Its talks about to consider it pure joy when you face trials of many kind.

I agreed with the writer that as Malaysian Christian, most of us face very light problems when compare to the problems of the rest of this world!

My trials this year (that I can see) is my wedding preparation and buying a house!
I know it is peanuts compare to the things around me! I am aware of it!

That is why I pray for God's mercy everyday and thank Him for the simple things in life like safety to work (and that I even have a job) and good bosses, friends, family and a wonderful fiancee and also good health!

I can only pray that when I do face harder trials in life God will give me the strength to endure it!

AMEN!

Post Chinese New Year Confessionand Thanksgiving!!

I had a so so CNY this year. I was so sick and tired that I didn't get to eat any CNY goodies or go around to visit people to enjoy the fun and fellowship. However even then I didn't really remember God during this time! Shame on me! What did I do then?!? Basically I slept and indulge myself with things that would make me feel better. I did prayed to God to make me feel better but to be honest , it wasn't enough.

Thank God for Mum!

She is a God fearing women!

She took care of me for one day!

And that was all it took to made me better.

Sometimes I feel that God's grace and mercy would not be as much as I have received if not for my mom's prayer and love for God!

Exodus 20
The Ten Commandments

1 And God spoke all these words:
2 "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.
3 "You shall have no other gods before [a] me.
4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below.

5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me,

6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.
7 "You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.
8 "Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy.

9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work,

10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates.

11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.
12 "Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.
13 "You shall not murder.
14 "You shall not commit adultery.
15 "You shall not steal.
16 "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.
17 "You shall not covet your neighbor's house. You shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor."

My Prayer!

Dear Lord,

Thank you for giving me such a great God fearing mum! Forgive me for taking forgranted of you and her sometimes.

In Jesus Name I pray!

Amen!

Pride comes before a downfall

Yesterday I boasted to a student that I have not been sick for a long time.
Even through I have been very busy and had little sleep, I was still ok!!

Guess what!!!

That same night I had really high fever!!!
Until now, I still have fever and all my bone joints are aching!!

Ha ya! Remind me to be humble!!!

Today through does not seem like they have any correlation to anything. Dunno! Maybe I am too sick to meditate....

2 Corinthians 2:14-17 (New International Version)
14But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. 15For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. 16To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task? 17Unlike so many, we do not peddle the word of God for profit. On the contrary, in Christ we speak before God with sincerity, like men sent from God.

Dear Lord!
Sorry for my pride! Please forgive me!
Please heal me! I am in pain!

In Jesus name I pray!
AMEN!!!